It all started with the decision to have weight loss surgery. This has been a decision I have always kept very private. I realise one day I am going to have to share this with others and I know that when I do I will embrace it because without having the surgery I don’t think I would be where I am at today.
I've struggled with my weight from an early age. I remember watching my parents go from diet to diet, so it seemed the norm for me to as well who I reached my pre-teen years and gained weight. I used food as a source of comfort and reward. As I gained more, I was teased, bullied, ridiculed - that pain and feeling of bewilderment wondering why friends/family/strangers would say such things to me was crippling.
I have just spent four days at the Foundations of Healthy Living Retreat and I want to share some of what I learnt.
I thought the retreat would be about my gastric bypass, nutrition, vitamins and drinking well, however it was more than that. It was a group therapy, reflection on why I self sabotage, thinking about what caused me to get obese, binge and purge and why I had depression and anxiety.
I'm Megan, a 48 yr old mum of two.
My journey began what seems a whole lifetime ago. I have struggled with my weight and self perception my whole life. Disaster struck once and for all when my first husband was killed when I was 28. Depression, post traumatic stress and raising two toddlers (one autistic) meant I comfort ate and my weight spiralled out of control. Medical issues also contributed.